First Trimester Recap

So I’m past the first trimester, but I thought it would be cool to do a little recap instead of doing weekly updates because the first trimester for me can basically be summed up in 3 words; sick, tired, HUNGRY!

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^ 14 weeks

It felt like my first trimester was only a month long because if you read my last post, you will know that we didn’t find out we were expecting until about 2 months in – which I didn’t mind one bit!

So far this pregnancy has been super different in some ways and exactly the same in others. It has been really fun to look back on my pregnancy updates from last time and compare details.

How it’s different:

Last time I had 13 year old boy acne for like 4 months straight and this time, I’ve maybe had one breakout.

Last time my nausea was just in the morning, this time it has been all day. This time is was also way more intense and although I never threw up there were waaaay too many close calls. I think it might be because this time I change diapers and seeing poop like 4 times a day is about the worst thing ever when you feel nauseous.

This time I had a huge meat aversion. YUCK!

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^ must sleep!

This time I’m craving more citrus/sweet/cold/fresh things, last time it was all pasta and the saltiest things I could get my hands on. Seriously, all I wanted all day was salami (?!?!)

I don’t think I have mentioned it on the blog before, and I’m even a little uncomfortable mentioning it now but, the biggest difference is last time I had (I didn’t even know this was  a thing) pre-natal depression (also called Antenatal depression). I literally got punched in the face with hormones and felt so down and depressed all the time. I know pregnancy brings about a lot of hormones and emotional changes for everyone but I could tell this was something different. I would get so emotional over the most random things my husband said to me and have super bizarre thoughts about things like my marriage and my body. For example, I had gained maybe 3 pounds and I would literally look in the mirror and loathe myself and feel enormous (but in the second trimester when I had gained like way more I felt amazing).  If my husband said anything to thing to me (ie. teasing me about chewing loud – this actually happened) I would cry for like 2 hours and then tell him that if he wanted out now then he was free to go and I was prepared to raise this baby on my own – and I would mean it. I would see that as a real possibility. Like, what in the actual hell right?!! This was so NOT me and I knew it at the time but I couldn’t get myself out of it. Thankfully it passed on it’s own. I can specifically remember the day where I was getting ready for bed at night and I realized “OMG – I didn’t cry today!!!!!!” and then the next day I didn’t cry, and the day after that and I knew it was over. I thank God for my husband’s patience and grace through that first trimester. It was funny because this time around I could tell he was prepared to tread lightly because of the hormone explosion that happened last time, but this time is nothing like that at all. I was so relieved to not have to experience that. Until this I had zero experience with any form of depression. I was always someone who never understood depression, and even now I don’t think I grasp it completely, but after my experience in my first pregnancy I thought to myself ‘I kinda get it.” I’m a little embarrassed to say that  I was a little insensitive about depression before. You can’t just “be happy” or be told “you’re not fat” or “I want to be married to you” – you still don’t believe any of it. Anyway – I’ve never said any of this before haha – but maybe some of you have felt the same. In case you were also wondering, I didn’t experience any post-partum depression after Dex was born.

First Trimester Recap: 

Total weight gain/loss:  I think I gained about 8 lbs in the first trimester. To me it seemed like a lot, but I started at a much lower weight than I did with Dex. I think it was because of nursing. I still haven’t caught up to what I naturally sit at (120) before pregnancy/dex/nursing. I was also eating for like a full family of 4 in the first trimester sooo. I’m currently about 118 and counting ;) (and because someone always asks I’m 5’2″)

Maternity clothes?: None during the first trimester but this week (17 weeks) I decided I’ll need to go get some maternity pants/leggings. Thinking of trying H&M. What are some of your fave maternity brands?

Stretch marks? Nope – doing the whole sweet almond oil thing again. It seemed to work last time.

Sleep: Sleep was so good the first 3 months. I’ve got a baby who sleeps through the night and my bladder can still make it until morning too! I’m dreading this changing!! I slept better with a newborn baby than I did when I was pregnant.

Best moment: Finding out we were pregnant was in the first trimester so I’ll say that. I also love seeing my little bump and taught Dex to say baby and where his and my belly is. The dating ultrasound was also fun…seeing a little bean on the screen is the best!

Miss Anything? Hot yoga, and I probably would have liked a glass of wine over the holidays but nothing really.

Movement: Not in the first trimester but started feeling them December 27th.

Anything make you queasy or sick:  YES! Meat of any kind, baby poo, garbage smell, weird textures, being hungry.

Have you started to show yet:  Yes! I’m much bigger this time around. When you think about Dexter was literally in there 16 months ago so I think my body is just like “I remember how this goes, I’ll just get started now.” I’m about as big at 16 weeks as I was at 23 weeks with Dexter.

Gender prediction: Last time I KNEW! We didn’t find out but I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that it was a boy. This time I have a feeeeeling but it’s nothing like last time. If I had to guess I would say girl but it’s still like 60/40.

Belly Button in or out? My belly button never went all the way out last time, but this time it’s already well on it’s way.2015-01-07 09.48.55

^ 15 weeks // full disclosure: I make these black and white to try to hide how filthy my bathroom mirror is. I don’t think it’s working. haha. I told you I was tired – no time to clean.

Happy or Moody most of the timeHappy! So much happier than last time!

Preparations for baby: We haven’t done much yet but I have some nursery plans. We will have to move Dex and decorate a toddler room for him too!

Looking forward to: Feeling kicks and Zach being able to feel them too. Also decorating a nursery and toddler room!

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^ today @ 17 weeks

Thanks for reading! I won’t be updating weekly but as much as I can and as things change! I’m also thinking about changing the questions in this update a little, I feel like so many of the answers stay the same every week. Any suggestions??




38 Week Update

IMG_2004 Last week (monday) marked 37 weeks/full term with this little babe. I know I say it every time, and that every mom ever has said the exact same thing but, time has never gone faster. I cannot believe we are 2 weeks away from our due date and who knows how long away from actually meeting our little one. The baby showers are done, the nursery is (pretty much) ready and now. we. wait.

This is what we do like every day. Is it me or is a man setting up baby gear exceptionally attractive? Mmmm!

IMG_2001 I had my second baby shower (in my hometown) and it was amazing. My mom and sister did such an amazing job planning it and it was perfect – Thank you to everyone who attended! Baby Havens says thanks for all the love! :)

My sister and I at my baby shower! She is due August 29th! IMG_1869 Mom and me (and Padme) IMG_1863 I am officially on mat leave and loving every second of it. I thought I might get bored but so far there has been so much to do. I am enjoying all the preparing and nesting and spending some time with friends and family before Baby Havens arrives. I feel so blessed to live in a country that gives us so much time off to spend with our babies in their first year. Woo Canada!

One of the things we have yet to do is to name this baby. We don’t know the gender of  the baby so we must prepare a boy’s name and a girl’s name. Our boy’s name is decided and a secret (for now). I really want to tell everyone, but a few people I told had some super strong opinions about the name we choose and it made me feel less confident in our decision. I think it’s one of those things that people will say to your face before the baby is born but once it’s out and named they just say it behind your back. Which I am totally cool with the latter. I know not everyone is going to love the names we pick, I just want to be able to come at it from a neutral and personal point of view instead of worrying about what everyone else will think of the name.

This brings me to our girl name. Or lack thereof. We are really stuck on this one. If this baby was born tomorrow and it was a girl, it would be un-named for like 4 days. (is that even allowed?) So I come to you, blog readers, for some suggestions. Here is the criteria. Has to be easy to spell, and it can’t be in the top like…..50-100. Please drop all your suggestions in the comment box below. We are getting desperate.

Update time? Sure!

How far along? 38 Weeks, full term! woo.

Total weight gain/loss:  28 lbs of pure baby Havens, okay and ice cream, and salt and vinegar chips…..

Maternity clothes?: At this point its all maxi dresses. My maternity tights aren’t even comfortable anymore. Too much tightness on the uterus.

Stretch marks? Not yet, this skin is crazy tight though so I’m sure I won’t get away unscathed. It’s just now getting itchy too.

Sleep: Sleep still sucks. Even though it has cooled down a lot here I still wake up a ton at night to go pee or roll over. Rolling over is like a 5 minute process each time so that keeps me pretty busy. I keep thinking to myself “I can’t wait until I’m not pregnant so I can finally get a good nights sleep” and then I remember that I’m having a BABY and that taking 5 minutes to roll over is gonna seem like a walk in the park in a couple weeks.

Best moment this week: One of my best friends Natalie had her baby shower this weekend which I had the pleasure of co-hosting! That was so fun! We also had a birthing class which was amazing and incredibly informative for Zach and me. It gave us so much more confidence and understanding about the whole process. Also we got our car seat and installed it in the car! Things are getting REEEAL!!

Miss Anything? Sleeping through a whole night, wearing pants.

Movement: Yes, since my last update the baby has been moving a lot more. It also has been getting hiccups about 2 times a day. That’s my absolute favourite, I never want it to end.

Anything making you queasy or sick: No :)

Have you started to show yet:  Heck yes! The last month has been crazy. I literally look and feel bigger every day. I have measured right on track for this whole pregnancy and now in the last month my belly is measuring almost 2 weeks ahead of schedule!!

Gender prediction: Gosh, I don’t know. You all know I think it’s a boy but there are days, most days, where just like anyone else I have no idea.

Labor Signs:  Maaaaybee- I don’t know. Occasionally I will have the odd low aches that remind me of period cramps but nothing really yet. Any day now would be awesome!

Belly Button in or out? Out-ish

Wedding rings on or off? On. Mamas, did everyone leave their rings on for labor/delivery? Or did you take them off?

Happy or Moody most of the timeFor some reason it was a super hormonal week. I cried like way more than usual and then woke up with like 4 breakouts this morning so must have just been a hormone surge or something. I guess this week a little moody ;)

Weekly WisdomA friend of mine said something to me (well she typed it) about having her new baby. She said “It’s so good and so hard and the BEST thing ever” This has literally stayed with me all week. Such a comforting and seemingly accurate description of what I’m about to get myself into.

Looking forward to: Meeting our baby! Thanks so much for reading! B

26 Week Update

26 weeks already! Somedays I can’t believe it. The second trimester is going by much faster than the first. Probably because most days I don’t feel pregnant at all. Other than my growing belly, inability to paint my toes without taking breaks and getting kicked from the inside out, I feel like my old self again!

The second trimester has been good to me. My skin got better, my emotions became more stable (to Zach’s relief) and I have been feeling so much more prepared. I hear the third gets a little bit tricky again, especially in the summer, but right now I’m enjoying this weather and being (almost) 7 months pregnant!

Lately, I have been having a little anxiety about birth. It’s like when you get engaged. You get this diamond ring and you’re all excited for a while and it’s all fun and games and shopping and planning and Pinterest and then you’re like “WAIT, a wedding is going to happen at the end of this, and I have to pay for it, and walk down an aisle.”

For me it’s kind of the same with pregnancy. I found out, freaked out, then got super excited about all the little things that come with having a baby. I went on Pinterest, took pictures my growing belly, talked fun names with Zach but lately it has hit me, a BIRTH is going to happen and I’m going to do it. It’s not necessarily that I am scared. I’m just finding it hard to wrap my head around. Parents give birth, moms and grandmas, adults – not me! I’m like…what… 20? Oh no, wait I’m 26, and married and an adult and now a MOM! I love it. I love every single second of it, but it’s a good thing it takes 10 months because getting emotionally and mentally prepared takes at least that long – and even then I don’t think anything could completely prepare me.

On to the update!

26 weeks

How far along? 26 and a half weeks!

Total weight gain/loss:  a whopping 17 lbs!! Woah mama! Started at 120 now 137! How on earth!?
Maternity clothes?: Yes. Tights, some jeans. Mostly I like non-maternity clothes that will work with my ever-growing belly. I love long stretch tanks from H&M and I bought a couple of maxi dresses for this summer. I’m just buying a size up for now.
Stretch marks? Not yet, been using organic coconut oil and sweet almond oil on my belly. :)
Sleep: Sleep is getting a little harder again, my legs and hips are starting to hurt and wake me in the middle of the night. That restless leg thing. Not cool!
Best moment this week: Being re-united with Zach in Vancouver and him giving me a mothers day card and gift!
Have you told family and friends: Yes
Miss Anything? HOT TUBS!!! The hotel we stayed at in Whistler was stunning and had this roof top hot tub with mountain views and all I could do was put my feet in! (the water was insanely hot). It was raining and chilly out so the top half of me was so cold! These sacrifices are preparing me to be a mom because after walking all day and having a sore back that hot tub was calling my name!
Movement: Pure karate kicks all the time! They are getting higher too and closer to my ribs! The occasional cervix punch as well, that one sucks haha
Food cravings: Watermelon, pizza.
Anything making you queasy or sick: No, still rice but I think I’m just scared to try it again.
Have you started to show yet:  Oh yeah! Getting large! I’ve almost gained 20 lbs which is insane! The body is so wild how it works at this time! It’s getting trickier some days to put on socks or sit up from a chair that leans back but I’m loving it! I had a hard time with the weight gain at the beginning but I think it was mostly hormonal. I felt bigger then than I do now and I had gained only 4 lbs. I think it helps too when you actually look pregnant and your belly is hard and round.
Gender prediction: Boy still – i don’t know why. Just a feeling but I LOVE my girl name so I’m kinda feeling like that would be awesome too!
Labor Signs: Around moving day I had some Braxton Hicks. Seemed early but I was super stressed and working hard.
Belly Button in or out? Almost out! and I love it, oh man it’s so cute!

Wedding rings on or off? on and still loose! No swelling yet!
Happy or Moody most of the timeHappy!  Moody if I’m hungry but what else is new?
Weekly WisdomNothing that I can recall? Any mamas wanna drop me some wisdom in the comment box, bring it on! <3
Looking forward to: Zach’s tour being over and being home together in our new house.

19 Week Update

(This post is 1 week late! My 20 week update will be posted some time this week! I just found this draft and wanted to post it to keep it documented!)

Ok, I have been slack-a-lackin on this blog lately! Even my sister is sending me texts urging me to stop being such a slacker. Zach and I have both been working a lot and packing/preparing for our move next month! It’s insane how much crap stuff two people can accumulate in 3 short years. I imagine this will triple when we have just one child and grow exponentially with each child after that. I’m gonna do a post on our move/new house in the next month. Can’t wait to share it!

Even this is a little late so week 20 will be up soon too! There really isn’t enough newness to keep things interesting but Ill try!

Update time!

How far along? 19 Weeks

Total weight gain/loss:  I won’t know until tuesday. We don’t own a scale so I find out at my appointment. I’m gonna say A LOT!
Maternity clothes?: Yes my “cousin” Tash gave me all her maternity clothes and I am so grateful! (Thanks Tash!!) She is the most stylish person I know and gave me so much adorable stuff that is so cute it will hopefully distract me from my whale state in a couple of months!
Stretch marks? Not yet, been using organic coconut oil and sweet almond oil on my belly. :)
Sleep: Sleeping amazing! Finally!!!
Best moment this week: Feeling our baby kick/move. Wow. Honestly, I get teary. It’s the weirdest feeling but makes me feel super connected to this little babe.
Have you told family and friends: Yes
Miss Anything? my old clothes, and being able to eat crap/junk without feeling guilty for letting my baby eat crap/junk
Movement: Yes! Yay! Same time every night!
Food cravings: Pickles, veggies and dip, cold drinks, tea
Anything making you queasy or sick: rice, avocado, sometimes meat.
Have you started to show yet:  Yes I have! Getting bigger every day and I love it!
Gender prediction: I don’t know anymore. Lately all of my dreams have been about a baby girl but if all of my dreams were real predictions then I might as well go to jail right now. Seriously some CRAZY dreams happening over here!!!
Labor Signs: no
Belly Button in or out? in
Wedding rings on or off? on
Happy or Moody most of the timeHad a moody day yesterday but otherwise, obnoxiously happy.
Weekly Wisdom: To work out while pregnant. I’ve started walking every day for an hour and doing squats and lifting small weights. I look like an idiot most of the time but they say it will help when I gotta get this babe out so I’ll try it.
Looking forward to: Midwife appointment on Tuesday and our 20 week ultrasound. IMG_0397

13 weeks

Woo 13 Weeks!! (this post is a little late-because today I am 14 weeks but I got busy blogging before anyone knew)

We, like so many other people out there, thought it would be cool to document the size of my belly to see how it changes. I’ll be posting weekly (hopefully) belly pics on this blog and a couple questions to go with each week. Just to let everyone know where we’re at and to keep a personal little record for my future non-pregnant self.

13 week belly shot

How far along? 13 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss: 2 lbs
Maternity clothes?: just some maternity leggings from Old Navy.
Stretch marks? No
Sleep: Not sleeping well at night. Usually I wake up 2-3x a night.
Best moment this week: hearing our baby’s heart beat! Such an emotional moment for the two of us.
Have you told family and friends: Yes, family found out around Christmas and some close friends were onto our little secret before now.
Miss Anything?: coffee, sleeping, having energy, not feeling 106 years old
Movement: not yet
Food cravings: Pasta, grapes, bagels, subway veggie subs, pickles (I crave pickles year round though – pregnant or not)
Anything making you queasy or sick: rice and avocado.
Have you started to show yet: yes! It’s just a little bump but it’s there!
Gender prediction: boy
Labor Signs: n/a
Belly Button in or out? in
Wedding rings on or off? on
Happy or Moody most of the time: 50/50. Literally both all the time. 
Weekly Wisdom: Someone recommended these really awesome swaddle blankets and said to stop feeling guilty about sleeping in or doing nothing for a couple of hours because there is a time coming really soon where those things will be very rare! (thank you!)
Looking forward to: Our next ultrasound when it will actually look like a baby this time.