Pregnancy Update: 25 Weeks

Tomorrow I’ll be 25 weeks pregnant! I had a total meltdown last night when I realized how soon this baby is coming and how much we still have to do. Things are truly so so different the second time around. In some ways it’s much harder but in other ways I actually like it a lot more. I think this time around I feel so much more connected to the baby because I know what I’m getting at the end of all this. That sounds so weird but the first time around, you don’t yet understand how much love you will have for your child. I hadn’t experienced nursing yet, or those moments you share with only your baby. The first time around it was almost so alien, so strange. People would explain things to me but I had yet to experience it for myself. This time I am experiencing pregnancy as a mother. This time, I have Dex, a perfect example of what is to come and it makes me just so much more excited to meet this baby and experience all those little moments with him or her.

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I wanted to change up the questions this time around so I took some of these from my sweet friend Allison’s blog! She’s expecting now too if you guys want to follow along with her as well!

How far along are you?: 25 weeks! yeah right!

Baby is: Awesome! kidding, kind of. I think I’m supposed to say: 14 inches long and about a pound and a half!

Movement: Crazy movement. From 16 weeks on I swear I can feel every move this baby makes. My placenta was at the front last time, so I never felt Dex like this. It’s super fun to be able to even feel little rolls and sharp things like (what I can only assume are) feet and knees and elbows. Dex was chill in the womb and chill when he came out so we might be in trouble with this babe!

Total weight gain/loss: I’m up 15 lbs. Which is way more than I had gained at this point with Dexter. But, I’m feeling good and eating well and happy with that!

Maternity clothes?: Yes – I got the most amazing jeans from H&M that make me feel stylish again! For shirts, I’m still just sizing up or getting long tees and tanks! H&M is really the best for all things maternity – whether it’s in that section or not. I also love the maternity line from Asos.com

Belly button in or out?: Almost out – and it never came all the way out with Dexter at all – so that’s different!

Stretch marks?: No not yet, but I’m crazy itchy and I think that’s connected somehow. I didn’t have an itchy belly with Dex until I was like 36 weeks!

Obsessing over: New baby shopping and nursery decorating! I’ve been pinning like crazy and working with an amazing e-designer on the new room! It’s hard when we don’t know the gender but we are going to prepare the best we can and then buy the gender specific touches after the baby is here.

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(cutest new organic swaddle blanket from Darling Littles – softest swaddle blanket I’ve ever felt!)

Sleep: Insomnia has hit me hard! I had it in the first trimester big time and now it is back. It feels like I drank a double americano at 1 am and then tried to go to sleep. My eye muscles literally hurt from trying to keep my eyes closed. Maybe it’s my body trying to give me a taste of what my new life will be like. Up all night, then up with a wild toddler all day. (I CAN do this, I CAN do this!)

Favorite moment this week: Hmmm – not going to lie it’s been an uneventful week. I guess the best part had nothing to do with babies/pregnancy at all but my amazing mother in law came over to watch Dex while I went out for the morning shopping alone! I hit up David’s tea, Lush and H&M and it was magical! Do i feel guilty that the best moment didn’t involve my babies? A little – but Dex saying “mama” for the thousandth time is the best part of my day and I thought that might be a little expected haha

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Working on: Our house. We are finishing up our bedroom then onto the new nursery, Dexter’s toddler room and a playroom in the basement. We were so confident that we could easily get all this done before the baby back in December and now I’m starting to freak out! At the end of the day the LAST thing I want to do is put together furniture or paint a room but it needs to get done. Waaah.. We will get there.

Thinking about: The birth. Always. Sometimes I lose sleep over it. I’m planning a VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarian) and feeling all kinds of anxious about how it will go. I know it is the right choice for me and I am so excited at the possibility of it happening but there are so many factors that can throw things off. I know this baby will get here how it gets here and that God has it all planned out but I’m still thinking about this whole VBAC thing alllll the time! (If you have had a VBAC I would love love love to hear from you!!!)

Currently craving: I barely had any cravings this time around until like this past week! Lately, I will think of something and nothing else will do until I have it. I’m loving orange juice, candy (like those 5c fruit candies), pizza, cucumber/tomato/feta salad, watermelon and ice cream.

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Anything make you sick or queasy?: No nothing. I have thankfully been nausea free since around 16 weeks, and it was BAD this time around so I’m so so so happy about that.

What are you most looking forward to?: Meeting this baby and finding out whether it’s a boy or a girl!! (spoiler alert – that will be my answer every week). Last time, we didn’t find out the gender and it was so easy. I was never tempted at all. This time, I am DYYYYING not knowing what it is. I think it’s because last time I was like 99% sure it was a boy in my heart. This time I have no feelings either way at all! I am just dying to know who it is and meet him/her and give them a name and a room in our home. Now that this child exists it just feels like our family isn’t complete until he/she is here. I am however, really working on soaking up my last couple months with one child and being able to spend all my time with Dex – so I’m also just looking forward to that – just the end of this chapter and the beginning of the next.

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Thanks so much for reading!

ps. SO many selfies in this post – just realized haha tired of the back of my phone yet? Me too. :)

B

First Trimester Recap

So I’m past the first trimester, but I thought it would be cool to do a little recap instead of doing weekly updates because the first trimester for me can basically be summed up in 3 words; sick, tired, HUNGRY!

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^ 14 weeks

It felt like my first trimester was only a month long because if you read my last post, you will know that we didn’t find out we were expecting until about 2 months in – which I didn’t mind one bit!

So far this pregnancy has been super different in some ways and exactly the same in others. It has been really fun to look back on my pregnancy updates from last time and compare details.

How it’s different:

Last time I had 13 year old boy acne for like 4 months straight and this time, I’ve maybe had one breakout.

Last time my nausea was just in the morning, this time it has been all day. This time is was also way more intense and although I never threw up there were waaaay too many close calls. I think it might be because this time I change diapers and seeing poop like 4 times a day is about the worst thing ever when you feel nauseous.

This time I had a huge meat aversion. YUCK!

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^ must sleep!

This time I’m craving more citrus/sweet/cold/fresh things, last time it was all pasta and the saltiest things I could get my hands on. Seriously, all I wanted all day was salami (?!?!)

I don’t think I have mentioned it on the blog before, and I’m even a little uncomfortable mentioning it now but, the biggest difference is last time I had (I didn’t even know this was  a thing) pre-natal depression (also called Antenatal depression). I literally got punched in the face with hormones and felt so down and depressed all the time. I know pregnancy brings about a lot of hormones and emotional changes for everyone but I could tell this was something different. I would get so emotional over the most random things my husband said to me and have super bizarre thoughts about things like my marriage and my body. For example, I had gained maybe 3 pounds and I would literally look in the mirror and loathe myself and feel enormous (but in the second trimester when I had gained like way more I felt amazing).  If my husband said anything to thing to me (ie. teasing me about chewing loud – this actually happened) I would cry for like 2 hours and then tell him that if he wanted out now then he was free to go and I was prepared to raise this baby on my own – and I would mean it. I would see that as a real possibility. Like, what in the actual hell right?!! This was so NOT me and I knew it at the time but I couldn’t get myself out of it. Thankfully it passed on it’s own. I can specifically remember the day where I was getting ready for bed at night and I realized “OMG – I didn’t cry today!!!!!!” and then the next day I didn’t cry, and the day after that and I knew it was over. I thank God for my husband’s patience and grace through that first trimester. It was funny because this time around I could tell he was prepared to tread lightly because of the hormone explosion that happened last time, but this time is nothing like that at all. I was so relieved to not have to experience that. Until this I had zero experience with any form of depression. I was always someone who never understood depression, and even now I don’t think I grasp it completely, but after my experience in my first pregnancy I thought to myself ‘I kinda get it.” I’m a little embarrassed to say that  I was a little insensitive about depression before. You can’t just “be happy” or be told “you’re not fat” or “I want to be married to you” – you still don’t believe any of it. Anyway – I’ve never said any of this before haha – but maybe some of you have felt the same. In case you were also wondering, I didn’t experience any post-partum depression after Dex was born.

First Trimester Recap: 

Total weight gain/loss:  I think I gained about 8 lbs in the first trimester. To me it seemed like a lot, but I started at a much lower weight than I did with Dex. I think it was because of nursing. I still haven’t caught up to what I naturally sit at (120) before pregnancy/dex/nursing. I was also eating for like a full family of 4 in the first trimester sooo. I’m currently about 118 and counting ;) (and because someone always asks I’m 5’2″)

Maternity clothes?: None during the first trimester but this week (17 weeks) I decided I’ll need to go get some maternity pants/leggings. Thinking of trying H&M. What are some of your fave maternity brands?

Stretch marks? Nope – doing the whole sweet almond oil thing again. It seemed to work last time.

Sleep: Sleep was so good the first 3 months. I’ve got a baby who sleeps through the night and my bladder can still make it until morning too! I’m dreading this changing!! I slept better with a newborn baby than I did when I was pregnant.

Best moment: Finding out we were pregnant was in the first trimester so I’ll say that. I also love seeing my little bump and taught Dex to say baby and where his and my belly is. The dating ultrasound was also fun…seeing a little bean on the screen is the best!

Miss Anything? Hot yoga, and I probably would have liked a glass of wine over the holidays but nothing really.

Movement: Not in the first trimester but started feeling them December 27th.

Anything make you queasy or sick:  YES! Meat of any kind, baby poo, garbage smell, weird textures, being hungry.

Have you started to show yet:  Yes! I’m much bigger this time around. When you think about Dexter was literally in there 16 months ago so I think my body is just like “I remember how this goes, I’ll just get started now.” I’m about as big at 16 weeks as I was at 23 weeks with Dexter.

Gender prediction: Last time I KNEW! We didn’t find out but I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that it was a boy. This time I have a feeeeeling but it’s nothing like last time. If I had to guess I would say girl but it’s still like 60/40.

Belly Button in or out? My belly button never went all the way out last time, but this time it’s already well on it’s way.2015-01-07 09.48.55

^ 15 weeks // full disclosure: I make these black and white to try to hide how filthy my bathroom mirror is. I don’t think it’s working. haha. I told you I was tired – no time to clean.

Happy or Moody most of the timeHappy! So much happier than last time!

Preparations for baby: We haven’t done much yet but I have some nursery plans. We will have to move Dex and decorate a toddler room for him too!

Looking forward to: Feeling kicks and Zach being able to feel them too. Also decorating a nursery and toddler room!

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^ today @ 17 weeks

Thanks for reading! I won’t be updating weekly but as much as I can and as things change! I’m also thinking about changing the questions in this update a little, I feel like so many of the answers stay the same every week. Any suggestions??

-Britt